Darkbear's

why am i writing this in english?
cause i dont want him to understand it...
i hope he doesnt... i hope all this english can scare him away...
...but then....
i'm not sure how many more people will back off cause this is in english..haha...
i dont care...i just have to write down something...
yeah yeah i admit... i do have some feelings for him...
so... so what?
i dont have to do anything about it right??
arg... i hate myself for thinking about him...
but i cant control it!
i guess i like older guys... being with chenXX was a totale mistake....
six years... isnt too much right?
oh what ever....
why am i thinking so much?
maybe he only treats me as a little sister....
sigh...


2005/06/14

i guess that's it...
from now on.... i'll treat him like a friend.... like a big brother.....
if you ask me am i sad?  yes... but i live....
after all i'm THE winnie right? always happy and hyper.....